December 2009
37 posts
irritated
ive been trying to
figure out how to
customize my HTML
on this site for hours
..smh #fail
Beauty
The time is right I’m gonna pack my bags And take that journey down the road Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining And I want to live inside the glow Yeah I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything That exists between here and nowhere I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences oh yeah The sky opens to my prayers I wanna go to beautiful,...
if..
i told u how i was really feeling right now..you would probably tell me you understood but deep down u had no idea. People will say anything you want to hear as long as they think it sounds good. Lies.
“ A lie travels half way around the world before the truth can get its pants on”
life..a beautiful mess
08/18/09 03:55 PM (this blog is only a few days old but i made a mistake and deleted it) children are molested everyday sometimes more then once a day yet noone seems to hear their cries… yet when the latest hit comes on the radio you ride down the road bumping such meaningless words for the world to hear.. this excites you.. why though? is it because you can actually relate to the...
constipated.
07/28/09 05:19 PM ever wanted to say something so bad but as soon as you open your mouth nothing comes out? well im experiencing that now.. its almost like being suffocated and stopped up @ the same time.. what shall i do?
one mind.|one body| one soul
07/27/09 10:16 PM one mind|one body|one heart|one soul who..what..when..why.. where do i go? trying to avoid the possiblity afraid to face reality and so the positive kicks but the negative throws turbo blows.. ding! K.O. attempting to run away from what may cause more pain.. to slow..to late. so do i hold on or fall and release? “make it fade.. make it sail away from me.”
truth or dare.
07/19/09 11:57 AM most people say they wont people to keep it real with them but truth be told when you’re honest with most people they get all bent out of shape. For the most part ive always been an honest person.. true to every word because i personally hate being lied to.. but to be honest with you,lately ive been feeling like damn should i have lied?? cause maybe i wouldnt have gon...
goodbye tomorrow.
07/16/09 10:59 PM i have nightmares about my past yet i dream of the future. a trip and a fall… oops now look at my face. and that scar.. left for eternity. and now what was once the perfect picture is only a blur a romantic kiss is now a peck on the cheek… once beautiful and now you’re unattractive. it’s not me its you.. yeah its my fault too. enough is not to much...
does love really exist?
07/08/09 09:43 PM Is love really blind or is it That we just act like we can’t see.. When we really can. Afraid to let go… Blindfolded by lies. Like a vampire.. The light destroys nothing Except the heart. Hello Goodbye Hello Goodbye.. What purpose does it serve?? Why ride the rollercoaster Full of familiar emotions Only to be let down in the end?? Does love exist? Does a diamond...
a desperate cry..
06/28/09 05:40 PM “I love you with all my heart and I promise to never leave you” Broken. Hold me and never let go.. Apology accepted..unaccepted. Please don’t go I need you.. A desperate cry. Promises made yet no time To make improvements A tear there. A tear there. But only a few smiles.. Ill let go of the past.. Yet still haunted by words Said that hurt..pain that goes...
time to let go..
04/30/09 03:19 PM Ever love something or someone so much That the thought of one day letting go.. Not once came across your mind? But when that day came you knew At that point it was the best option It hurts so bad because you’re so used To their prescence.. Maybe they depended on you for something And you miss that too. I cried this morning because I walked away while you cried.. And...
coward.
04/14/09 07:46 AM You once touched my soul. I felt some truth only to find out it was all a lie. Thee actions of a COWARD. One afraid to face what most call reality. Hide from true feelings. “I didn’t want to hurt you.” FAILED. Thank you! For I have overcomed such pain once felt before.. And yes there was a time before that as well. Thank you! For your cowardly ways.. Has...
for you.
04/03/09 03:01 PM late night conversations of sometimes nothing @ all does it really matter?? nah not really cause its your voice.. that makes me feel yes it makes me feel.. just like that. Ooooweee that tingle. imagine.. i lay my head on your chest in one ear i hear your heart beat.. the other there is your voice again but this time you whisper love letters in my ear. a smile. real smile.....
woman confused.
03/17/09 02:49 PM Im not pointing any fingers..but many of you know who you are. Please stop lying to yourselves..you say you want,need,and deserve..so much..but when you finally meet a woman that is willing to step her game up and show you that there is a such thing as a good woman..that’s not enough?? You make up 125million excuses as to why you’d rather walk away then to...
if i could fly..
03/13/09 09:04 PM I wish that I had wings for like a week Id fly… Id go to a very quiet place Peaceful. And all I had to do for that whole week is think of happy things.. Ways I can be a better WOMAN And when I decide to come back to all the NOISE Everything will be just as I left it.. But id be worry and stress free Because the peace and quiet has allowed me to find peace within...
the day you find me..
03/09/09 12:09 PM You watch me roll around in a field of red lilies.. I get up with a smile on my face one never seen. You greet me..but for some strange reason you know the smile is only a front..and all is not what it seems. You then take me to a place more beautiful then any where I’ve ever been. The water crystal clear blue..and even though I can’t swim I imagine….all...
this is funny
03/05/09 04:16 PM I haven’t heard from you in months..@ least 6. Had no idea if you were dead or alive.. Now that you aren’t with your girl..you reappear. Apologizing as if I asked for an apology. Now im suppose to “act” as if everything is ok? That’s funny to me. For all you ladies that dismiss your “real” friends for something that only seems like...
i tried
03/03/09 09:20 AM To give you the world but that wasn’t enough.. Then the universe Turns out That wasn’t enough either.. Reached inside.. Gave you my heart.. The love that was given.. Not once to anyone else.. But I thought you wanted it.. You then said it was to much.
this blurry picture
03/02/09 10:28 AM It all happened so quickly.. But as I look @ the picture so blurry.. Once there was a story behind it…. Now all I see is a stick figure.. I can tell she is a little girl. So fragile. I then realize in the center she has no heart. I continue to look Damn That pinkish red area.. Lies her little heart. Her face is disfigured because all The emotions she once shared with...
WEIRD.
02/24/09 06:18 PM That my teeth aren’t really white but like an offwhite? Is it weird that my legs and feet are ashy as shit right now? Is it weird that I have stretch marks? Is it weird that my chinese tats may mean something other then what I think it is? Is it weird that im in love with a woman thousands of miles away? Is it even more weird that we’ve never met? Is it...
WOMAN.
02/20/09 07:10 PM she is.. smart beautiful mean wonderful sincere independent selfish stubborn silly caring adorable authentic she is… a woman… and i love this woman.
valentineless?
02/14/09 06:00 PM 3rd year in a row and this pretty much sucks. Ok so im over it..walmart had those red lilies I adored and so hell..I bought them for myself. :o) What next?? Im bout to smoke one,sip on some cranberry with a twist..with that said..you all have a lovely valentine’s day!
does life exist?
02/11/09 05:36 PM And this is all a dream.. And our dreams aren’t really a dream but just one deep in thought? What if there is really a GOD??GOD created..but who or what created GOD?
bubblegum no flavor
02/06/09 05:29 PM When I was a kid id chew a piece of gum.. Once it lost its flavor I put sugar on it.. Even tried dippin it and kool-aid a few times.. But no matter how much sugar I put on the gum.. Or how many times I dipped it in kool-aid.. I could never get the flavor back.. That’s how I feel about you and I.. (This blog is old,its just something that’s always stuck with me...
frozen words
02/05/09 06:47 PM silence breaks As I stand alone on Thin ice.. I open up my mouth to Speak.. But wait.. I forgot there is Nothing left to say. Amazed I watch my words Freeze As if they never exist.
and this feeling..
02/05/09 06:06 PM Frustrated with LIFE… Constipated with FEAR. Surprised by his,her,and their ACTIONS. Watch while I attempt to put this 500 piece puzzle together with only 255 pieces. Continue to laugh while I get back up and try this again. I’ll meditate as the HATE builds.. Once a hurricane now only a thunderstorm soak and wet as I cling on like I would for LIFE. Not...
unpretty
01/24/09 05:55 PM Beauty that will never be seen by a stranger… Yet even the one that loves ignores.. Stretch marks.. Off white pearlies… And a few extra pounds.. A dread that has finally given up on that single Strand of hair and let go. Memories of the past that make you smile.. Then makes you cry. Poetry with no emotion. Love once found then lost. Yet that beauty is still there.....
leave a message..
01/20/09 09:28 PM unhappy…. you’re DONE.. i smile.. yet i hurt like never before INSIDE.. tryin to figure out.. and why..what was your purpose.. maybe ill never know.. what i do know is i miss you sooo much. ill call you sometime in the near future.. you wont answer.. but my heart will smile once i hear you say your name… BEEP.. i wont leave a message…i love you.